One year ago, on the brink of turning 35, and the launch of Untap Your Sparkle, I made the decision to focus my upcoming year around the sun on the practice of developing, enhancing, and strengthening my intuition. It is a strange and exciting experience to commit to focus on something for a full year and then reach the end of the cycle. There are feelings of excitement, “One year! Here we are! We made it”, feelings of anxiety, “Did I do enough? Was I focused on intuition and expansion as much as I had intended?” and of course, feelings of pressure, “What came of this Year of Intuition? Did anything change?”
The short answer to all of the above: Yes.
This past year, from August 2017 to the end of July 2018, has been a time of changing, growing, and stretching for me in every way. I have STRUGGLED this year. This struggle was more difficult than I expected, and was more intense than I would have wanted or guessed when I made the statement that my age 35 goal was to focus on intuition. That has been an important and unexpected part of My Year of Intuition, and a point I will return to.
Over the year, I have:
Taken classes to support the expansion of my intuition, including courses focused on Developing Intuition, Crystals, and (so many classes on) Tarot.
Studied Shamanism, Alchemy, Astrology, the Elements, Animals, and medicine found in nature.
Practiced and certified at the Reiki Master Teacher level, which has been a goal for a long time.
Attended an amazing retreat with inspiring humans that was the culmination of 5 months of study and exploration of some of the ideas listed above.
Invested in myself by experiencing all sorts of healing services including Tarot readings, Spirit Guide sessions, Middle Pillar Healings, and Crystal Grids.
Meditated every single day.
Fasted, explored a plant based diet, and took what I learned through my extensive experience with Whole30 to explore how what I put in my body impacts my connection to my self and my inner wisdom.
Gained so much by having the opportunity to serve others by providing individuals with Akashic Records readings, Reiki sessions, Tarot Readings, and general wellness and energy support.
Served myself by giving myself Reiki treatments, spending time in my own Akashic Records, pulling Tarot cards almost daily, hiking, listening to my body, and exploring different meditation styles.
Obsessed over the moon, and shared that passion with many clients and friends.
Cleared my space with new tools.
Found power and healing in my expanding crystal collection.
Reflected in new, mindful ways.
The most magical outcome and realization of My Year of Intuition is the conclusion that my intuition, my inner wisdom and knowing, was the catalyst that sparked the idea to explore all of this during age 35. It was my intuition that triggered the idea to dive deep into the mystical, spiritual, and metaphysical, and did so for a very good reason. As mentioned, throughout this year, there were many moments where I found myself feeling lost, homesick, isolated, fearful, and anxious. I spent many hours treading water between my “old life” back home in Chicago and my “new life” in my new(ish) city of Los Angeles, wondering where I truly was meant to be. I battled nostalgia, FOMO, resistance to change, doubt in my value, and questioning my purpose. None of this was expected, a lot of it was messy, and all of it provided ample opportunities for both discomfort and learning.
The most powerful medicine to manage and heal these feelings was the new tools that I was exploring in My Year of Intuition. My intuition told me to explore my intuitive wisdom and practices further. Now I realize that this idea showed up so I could cope with the difficulties that were on the horizon this year.
Damn. Intuition is magical.
Throughout My Year of Intuition, the exploration of these tools to expand my inner knowing became the sacred medicine I needed to find balance, remember hope, and trust what was showing up. Throughout my life, I have been guilty of the never-ending desire to better myself, heal, and obsess over new personal development opportunities. I have lived a lifetime of feeling like I needed something to fix me. This year helped me to see that while I love to explore new ways to thrive, I also do not require ANYTHING to be worthy. I am worthy just as I am, in this moment, perfectly imperfect. This year, I learned and accepted that I really do have everything I need within me. This deep dive into myself brought me one of the most empowering and unexpected revelations: I am whole. Even in the midst of all the feelings and doubts and fears, I am okay.
Exploring my intuition has allowed me to experience this rollercoaster of life, feel all the complicated feelings, and still know peace. My Year of Intuition has helped me to realize that I will continue to explore tools to expand my intuition because I enjoy getting to know my true self and love to learn from my own inner wisdom. Intuitive practices bring me hope, peace, and comfort. All natural and already within me, my intuition is the greatest medicine that I did not know I already had access to, no prescription necessary.
Are you interested in exploring your own intuitive wisdom together? Let me know. Wellness and intuition work wild, sparkly magic together.